Bummer

Well, I'm beating myself up right now for what you might think is something dumb, but we had our weigh in last night and I was up .4# (Point 4) now, I know that is nothing but it bummed me out.

Happy & Grumpy or Money & Happy?

This is the millionth time I’ve felt this way in the last 6 months. I need excitement, I need drive, I need something and I don’t know what it is. Anyone guess what I am talking about? Let’s see….it’s starts with a J and ends with a B and there is an O in the middle. Yep you guessed it….a JOB. Yes, I should be grateful I have one at the given moment due to the “stability” of our lovely Michigan economy and no available work… however I am bored out of my mind. Not that there is not projects to work on, accounts to service or filing to be done, it’s just that I feel blasé about my situation. I’m sure most people would say…”just look for another job” only if it were that easy. Let me list the reasons why it’s not…..

-I make decent money where I am at.
-I have benefits through my employer for my entire family as Dan does not.
-I have a flexible enough schedule that if my kids were sick or I needed to leave for an emergency, I could.
-My husband doesn’t think there is anything wrong with my situation and doesn’t understand money isn’t everything.
-Dan’s favorite quote is “if I got paid what you do to basically do nothing, I wouldn’t complain”
-We don’t have the money for me to quit, pay for insurance and go back to school for anything.

It’s not that I have a grand plan or heck even at 33 years old know what I want to be when I grow up…I just know that I don’t want to be “paper pusher” for the next trillion years and it’s really starting to bum me out. Even though I have been at this current job for 6 years and a prior one for 5 years I basically did the same thing…was a paper pusher. I don’t need to win the lotto, I don’t need a money windfall…I will work and work hard for what I get but I’m at a loss as to what to do.