Vist from beyond

So, I think last night I had a visit from someone on the other side. If you beleive in such a thing. I know someone who passed back in August. I was not real close with her but knew her and hung out with mutual people. Anyway, last night in my "dream" she came to my porch while I was sitting on it and I was suprised to see her and gave her a hug and said "how are you?" and she said "I'm doing good now, Nickie"....and that was it. I woke up. Weird and I've been bothered by it all day...if it was really her telling me she was ok, why did she pick me and why 5 months after she died? Maybe it really was a dream.

Alter-Ego or Mid-Life?

This whole blog will not make sense to anyone I'm sure and maybe make me look like a psyco?

Sometimes I feel like I am two different people, well one to everyone and "what I am supposed to be" and then the one that secretly wants to come out and play...ok, so if you knew me, you'd know that I'm married, a mom, a cheerleading coach, a church going, hard working Catholic girl who wants to do right, who wants to see the good in everyone who wants to beleive I am on the right path (the Marsha Brady/Mandy Moore type) but my other side really wants to rebel right now...I want my tattoos to show, I want to get a nose ring, I want to be the "punk" who doesn't give a crap about what others think, say or feel (the Pink/Green Day type) who wants to work the non-traditional 9-5 slacker job....somehow I will continue to suppress that person and know I am who I am