Get out of my head

Recently I got to thinking about “What ifs”…why, I don’t know…I don’t dwell on them but sometimes I tend to think bad “What ifs”…I guess that wouldn’t make me a mom if I didn’t, right?

Since Dan’s not working, what if I lost my job too?

What if one of my kids gets seriously sick?

What if one of my parents die, how will I help the other?

What if my house was on fire and I could only save one other person?

What if I became blind?

Ok…you get the idea right? Just rambling and not sure why all of a sudden these things are popping into my head.

I'm gonna suck your blood......

You would have thought I got attacked by a vampire today!!...I went to the allergist and she wants to rule out a million things before we go down another path for the itchies. I got a stronger pill...I haven't itched all day...yeah me!!! :-)

She did order every blood test in the book. Liver, Kidney, Thyroid, Immune, foods, panels, CBC's....and 19 vials later..yes, you read that right they drew 19 vials of blood from me today. They took 10 in my right arm before she lost it then switched to my left side for the other 9. Then made me sit there for 15 minutes to make sure I was ok. Gees, I didn't know a person had that much blood they could just give up. So hopefully by the end of next week I'll hear back from the doc and see what she says.

What now??

So back in December I started itching at first I thought it was dry skin due to the dry weather in the winter time. Gooped myself up with lotions/aloe…you name it I tried it. Pretty soon I was itching on a daily basis and no place was excempt. Lips, Head, Legs, Behind, Neck. I went to see a dermatologist and at this point the more I itched the more I welted/hived/bumped up. It feels like fire ants biting me. It not only itches it's drives me crazy. Luckly the allgergist gave me an allergy shot. That was March…it is now July and I have been to 3 doctors, taken several different meds and nothing…I continue to itch to the point and I bleeding, breaking blood vessels or bruising myself to death…not to mention I'm still going INSANE!!!! I go tomorrow morning to see an allergist. I have been keeping track of what I eat and there is one thing that really sets me off in a frenzy and that is Pizza. I have been told it may be a yeast/wheat/gluten allergy but they won't know until I test. UGH….so until then I am clock watching until it's 7:30 tomorrow morning.

Fell off the face of the earth

Yep, so I fell off the face of the earth forever but I'm back. It's hard when kids are in ball 4-5 nights a week. Now we are starting football season...yeah, my fave!!

I'm going to try to be better about blogging but does anyone really read these? If you do let me know.....

Tomorrows post: Itching.....why??

Miscellaneous stuff

I read two fantastic books this weekend. Yes, both books in one weekend. I couldn’t put them down. The first was called Waiting with Gabriel. It’s a story of a family who struggles when they find out the child they are carrying has a fatal heart defect and won’t live much past birth. It made me cry through most of the book but showed the family’s heartbreak, acceptance and peace through a very difficult time. The second book was called It’s all about Him. This story is by Denise Jackson the wife of Country Music legend Alan Jackson. It’s about their struggles through fame, infidelity and her willingness to accept God in her life and a spiritual journey. It had a very strong message and one that spoke to me. I am Catholic, go to church, try to be a good person, don’t deny that I sin but I have not fully let my life be an open book and fully let Him show me the way. I’m going to work on that.

Sorry if the above sounded like a commercial for those books. Now that I read it back it sounds like a written review. Funny.

Well T-minus 21 days and counting until I register for school. I feel scared, nervous…wondering what in the world I am getting myself into and what if I can’t do it? What if I can’t finish..what if it’s to hard? Why didn’t I go right after I got out of High School? Going back to school at 34 (by the time school starts) is not cool but I’m going to try.

Baseball and Softball start for both kids shortly. I always love to go to the games and see how well they’ve progressed from last year but then again it reminds me that I like winter with no sports to run to here and there.

I got glasses a week ago. Figured I’d need reading glasses as my eyes were tired while doing work on the computer but really I needed progressives. Far and near-sided…nice. So I have to wear them all the time. So far I haven’t done to horrible at trying to adjust. Take them off occasionally just because my nose/ears hurt.

We had to take our kids out of daycare starting last week as Dan is laid off. I know he gets unemployment but it freaks me out because not sure if or when he’ll pick up again. There are no other jobs out there available. He’s sent his resume out on a few but nothing. The economy and especially in Michigan is just horrible. Hopefully it won’t affect us to bad. Needless to say home renovations are on hold. That’s ok though.

Wow, this blog is all over the place…we’ll guess that’s why I call it rambling.

Until next time….

Houston we have a problem...

I've been here for 6 years and in those 6 years 37 people have been shit canned for no good reason...it's always "restructuring"....and then nothing good ever comes from it, we only have 32 people anyway... it's like a friggin revolving door around here. Good thing I only have two small pic's on my desk. You never know when you will be next.

Would someone just shoot me please?

So at this place...lets call it work, there is a gal who got "promoted" to a new position and if I have to hear her say "I'm the director of education" or a reference to being the "Director of Education" one more time, I'm going to poke my eye out. It's wonderful, fabulous, great that she got a new position but quit talking about the friggin "title" and just do the job...for the love.